Choked.back.tears:

What has happened
     Some, delirious night.mare
Into my reality, repeated.
    Some surreal vision, pierced
                In the eyes, who caused*(me)

-        “           “
  -love is what you taught,
even when the caring anger
                            deep within my eyes
glared onto your life
   in the days,     the missed

     “forever” & “always”
       [-the promised-
       -the remaining-]     -

    
Why couldn’t I let my painful tears,  ever
Fall on you, upon you, as they do this paper,
  Always, choke back,  the emotions
         Pulsing through,
     Let you see,       the, tears I kept,
                      Hidden.
   Feel what you’ve showed me,
      Know, what I haven’t managed,
         To cry out onto these writings of mine
       


  I have no last words
       This time  .
Continue on, I will
               Love.
               You.